What a strange little card this one is....I have recently started using this really beautiful Soul Cards by Deborah Koff-Chapin, instead of my normal Runes. I am loving them and find them surprisingly easy to read. I didn't think I would as there is no explanation with them. That said I went with the flow, trusted my intuition and am finding them just wonderful.....until this one came up!
I'm not sure at all about this. I don't really care for the face, which that statement in itself tells me I need to have a little self enquiry session. I feel it is a saintly spiritual card and the word Emergence comes to my mind quite strongly. I find the hands disturbing - they denote to me Male Hands perhaps my male energy is helping me emerge from a vulnerable fragile place that I feel I have been for some months now. It could be I am to allow a male figure to help me. I will keep an open mind on this.
The eyes keep telling me Cat for some reason. I will ponder it. All in all it is quite a warm card which I feel advises me to listen to small flashes of wisdom which pop up on a regular basis. I think I need to sit with this for a while longer. Then I will do my best to journal my thoughts.
I didn't sleep last night much and felt very teary when I went to sleep. Tears I guess are cleansing. I don't do tears well. I don't do vulnerable and fragile well. I have had moments of real fuck off anger today followed by sad weepy slush. Most bizarre. It was therapeutic for me to write my very feeling mid-life hormonal blog last night but immediately felt really guilty that I wasn't the normal 'supermum' star that I normally see myself as. It felt odd. I cried again.
Today someone commented. I was scared. It was fine. In fact it was better than fine it was wonderful. Thank you Sue. A divine woman whose blog 'the occasional adventures of Betty' is great itself. Her words were like soul balm. I am not very good at accepting balm. I think I need practice. I will get better at it. I am still pondering this whole Grandma thing. I feel it will be a big ponder. That is OK. So just a short one tonight but a post none the less. We will see how this amazing unknown future journey will evolve....its all good.